[personal profile] estrellada
I'm not crossposting this to LJ. The person I just broke up with reads there about twice a year and I don't want them seeing this yet.

I just broke up with R, who I dated for 2.5 years. We've had issues for a while - she's not able to really support me cuz of her previous commitments. She has trouble putting the maintenance work into a relationship where she doesn't see the person regularly. She has very little time for me, and that's gotten less and less.

It sucks. I feel like I haven't had time to process this, what with work being really busy and having lost a tooth last week and being on many rounds of anti-biotics, and being broke and saving up to visit relatives back east and support K during surgery.

We had a D/s relationship. I had a relationship with her kids. I used to spend Christmas morning with her family. She told me she wanted us to never breakup, she actively encouraged me to buy into it.

I can't sustain a relationship tho, where my needs got whittled down to the bare minimum, and I got treated like I was an asshole for having them.

The last 3 weeks, I had a hard time reconciling the stressed out, blamey, ranty communications I was getting with the person I had loved and been loved by for years. It really sucked.

And I ended it. Cuz this is what I do when things get bad. I end them because I'm worth more.

I just hate that I need to learn this over and over.

Date: 2012-09-03 02:04 am (UTC)
kopper: (Default)
From: [personal profile] kopper
I am sorry to hear this, and I can completely understand and support your reasons. And yes, it is a lesson that I have had to learn and re-learn in my own relationships now. If you get it now, you're a lifetime ahead of me.

Take care.

Date: 2012-09-10 03:33 am (UTC)
kopper: (Default)
From: [personal profile] kopper
You might want to invoke the 6-month rule. I worry about the TF's though, because you were a big part of their lives for what looks like a short time to you or me, but is a big chunk of time in their lives.

Date: 2012-09-03 04:11 pm (UTC)
moizissimo: dammit, jim! (Default)
From: [personal profile] moizissimo

Date: 2012-09-10 01:57 am (UTC)
moizissimo: dammit, jim! (Default)
From: [personal profile] moizissimo
Yay! I have the pattern out waiting to be traced, but I haven't got as far as tracing them yet. Soon! :)

Date: 2012-09-04 02:20 am (UTC)
yam: (Default)
From: [personal profile] yam
I am so proud of you for doing right by yourself. But ohhhh the right thing can hurt so much. *hug*



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